I don’t see it anymore,
The joy in life, I used to feel..

All I do lately is wipe away tears,
And pretend with a smile that it’s all okay..

Will there ever come days,
that I will truly smile?
Will there ever be someone,
I’ll fully trust?
Will there ever be a day,
I don’t live in fear?
Will there ever be a time,
I won’t be so self conscious every day?

But when I ask myself these questions
I see I never felt that before,
I’ve always felt like this,
I don’t know any other way..
I don’t believe I ever enjoyed life to the fullest..
I don’t believe I was ever truly happy..

Cause there was always something,
That stood in the way..

So it’s better to ask myself,
Will I ever experience these feelings..
Or will I just go on living like this.
Cause If I do,
I won’t hold to the last stop,
I won’t ride this train to its end..
I can’t hold on that long..