I hate it.


A never ending love,
that's what it is.
No matter in what kind of situation we are,
it will not end.

I know you don't mind,
You want it just as much as i do.
Nothing more,
nothing less.

You know,
just like i do,
it is so much more,
what is going on between is.

You also want to know,
just like i want to know,
what that thing between us,
really means.

I see us in so many ways,
together in so many days,
That is what killing me,
cause you aren't here.

You are together with that guy,
What is he doing there?
You really like him,
You really want to break my heart?

Even so i don't know if i did this to you too,
cause you never spook of it.
So if i did, please for give me,
i didn't want to break your heart.

I need to tell you so much things,
but that isn't what is buggering me,
What buggering me is,
that i need to hear you out.

I need to see your face,
cause i is rising me like a racket,
I just need you,
to make your dream come true,
cause without,
what purpose do i have in life then?

I need to make you smile,
to hear what is buggering you,
to see what you are seeing,
so i need us as in we.

Would you please give me that purpose,
of your beloving men,
of your guardian,
your own personal trainer,
your own animation team,
your trips to many country's
your pillow in your bed,
Your sea,
your ocean,
your sun,
your moon,
Your star.

Now i just don't know,
what will become of me,
i'm fighting,
standing on my own,
But i don't like it at all,
it's like shadows are following me every where,
it is scary as hell.

And the most scariest part of every day,
is that i can't tell you,
it will be oke,
you can do it,
i believe in you.

You are the apple of my eye.
You are the shining star in my life,
That is what buggering me,
i can't let you know.

And for real,
i hate you for that,
I hate you for not telling me how you are doing,
i hate you for being with that guy,
that guy who should be me.
I hate it that you blocked me,
i hate the pain that you aren't with me,
i hate the thoughts that i can't ask you,
to celebrate my birthday,
i hate it that i can't ask you for Christmas,
or to be together with new years evening.
I hate that i can't give you my love,
i hate it that i can't give you paintings
I hate it that things went the way it went.

I hate it,
but i don't hate, that i hate it.
I hate it, that i can't ask you how to make it right,
i hate the lonely hours Weill my thoughts still there with you.

But i don't hate that i love you.
I hate it, and you can't tell me,
you are not hating it too.
I saw your teardrups in your eyes,
i saw you stare like me,
I saw that my presence you engage.
I know every word i say is reaching you in every way,
straight to your heart.

I hate it that my soul,
isn't with me any more,
I hate it all, but still i believe,
in us,
in we.

You are just the scary one not to see,
or scared of what will happen next,
but you know,
i'm scared too,
but i know together with you,
we don't have to be scared,
as long we would have each other.

I hate it,
I hate that you distrust me.

I hate you for being so beautifull,
i hate you for being so sweet,
i hate you for being so strong,
i hate you for being with that guy,
it should be me,
it should be me!

I hate it that you leaved me alone,
i hate it,
and i didn't ever wanted this to happen,
i hate it so damm much,
even started to hate myself,
I hate myself without you.
I hate the way it had to be,
I hate to know,
i can't do things on my own.
Like i always thought,
i hate to admit,
but i need us.

I just hate the things you said to me,
cause it really hurts,
i hate it is just spinning around every day,
i hate to live in darkness,
i hate there aren't any colors,
i hate it that the sun isn't rising any more.

So now,
did i tell you,
what i hate,
did i?

Well see,
i'm gonna tell you again,

I hate it,
that i am not with you,
i hate it,
that i'm not yours,
But i really really hate,
that you aren't letting me,
making your dreams come true.

I hate it,
that i'm waiting so much days
so much evenings,
alone,
on a brig,
standing there waiting for the one i love,
i hate it,
but i can't let go.
and i will not let go.
This hate is telling me something,
"Your can be with a other girl,
you can go every where you want"

But i hate those thoughts,
I hate it.


I hate it you went to the cops,
i hate it,
cause you know i wouldn't ever harm you,
i hate it,
that you distrusting me.

The song "I hate that i love you"
So true, But the feelings will never go away,
not in a million times.
That's why i hate this,

I hate it,
that i can't swim in your eyes,
i hate it,
that i can't hug you,
i hate it,
that i can't stand by your side,
i hate it,
that we can't celebrate party's with our family's.
I hate it,
i hate it so damm much,
So please,
I don't want to hate,
I want to be happy about the love for you,
together with you,
as one,
and not alone.
You hate you can't say i'm right,
you hate it.

So let us undo the hate feelings,
let us be happy with or love for each other,
I do not hate the images of being together.
I do not hate to talk with you,
do not hate it at all,
you could call me any time you want,
i won't ever hate you for waking me up.
i won't ever hate you for making me smile,
i also won't hate for making you smile,
to give you a good feeling every day.

I would not hate to stop you for doing something stupid,
i would not hate to say things to you, you would need on that moment,
i would not hate to put my time beside me,
to be with you, or to help you out with something.

But i hate it, much things about you,
and i don't want to hate you,
cause you are to precious to me,
So don't let me hate you.
Cause i really hate,
those things i hate.

I hate it.