It doesn't do him justice,
And seems to demote how much I value his friendship
But it's the only word that comes to mind

I've been friendzoned, just his friend, never his boyfriend
Maybe it's for the best, maybe not, I don't know any more
I can't say I'm in love, I won't allow it
But I've had feelings for him since the moment we first met

Everybody noticed, exept for him, he just didn't see me
He cares about me, he really does, but as a friend
I can't stop wondering what would have happened,
If we weren't friend, had just met
That day I told him I had feelings for him

If he didn't know me as fragile and inexperienced,
Just saw me as a boy that has feelings towards him
Would he still say:
"you're a wonderful person, you deserve better than me"?

If it didn't endanger our friendship, would he kiss me?
Would he lay down with me, not knowing he would be my first?
Just follow his gut, not his reason
Nothing to lose, not afraid to hurt my feelings

Just accepting it when I say he's all I want
Living in the moment, just for one night

Would I give up all we have now,
Just to go back in time and take the risk? Never.
But I can't help wondering:
"What if?"