Time machine

When my life had a time machine

I knew where to go

To the deepest wishes in my heart

To heal my loneliness

No one can understand right now

Where my understanding stopped

I would go back in years

To keep you

To hold you again

To tell you all the stories

From deep in my heart and head

Wich no one can feel

There’s only me now

Nothing can heal me

I paid a lot in worries and sorrow

And all whats left… is me

I remember all the pain

Of growing any way I can

The growth of beiing a good wife

And so importend.. to be a mam.

And ik have been growing

Mostly the hard way

I have lost so many people

And what comes around goes around

But it’s time

My heart has a hole

But it doesnt say it’s locked forever

New things in time wil make me another new person

So do I wanno go back?

Or do I wanna step forward in time…

You know it… and I know it too.

I want to leave my heartbroken body and soul

To make a new life for my self

And the ones who will love me back, in it.

There is no time machine wich fixes

All what happend to me…

But I wanna be… only ME.

In time…