Better off (II)

i've heard it before, can't listen to you anymore
you won’t convince, i know you’ve tried ever since
i wonder what you’re doing this for
It hurts to hurt you
everyday a bit more
i tried to stay alive
But it doesn't really matter
i have said i cared
yet did not feel it at all
i taught myself to hold on tight
When the dream was there
i scream but there's no one here
To hear or hold my hand
i'd rather die alone
than speak what’s left unsaid
it’s meant to be unsaid
that i gave and let you take and it hurts till this day
Can’t speak, can’t let go, i’m left here astray
No i can't live like this no more
There's nothing left in the end
i want it out of my head
Yes, i gave and let you take and it hurts till this day
Now there's no strength to live
i just want it out of my head
Hoped that if i'd forget my memories
They'd forget me too
Put a bandage on my aching spots
Only to need more blood
to crush me, to break me
Been trying to turn my life around
But i can feel i’m dying
Let me crush me, let me break me
i’ll help you forget
You’re allowed to cry, there’s just no need to
Please don't let my death get to you
Have i done enough to prove you all
i’ve tried to stay alive for you