~(Don’t) Want to (Fight)~
Don’t want to feel
as i’m feeling everything all at once
Want to feel something
as i’m getting that numb glance
Don’t want to remember
thoughts and feelings tear me apart
Want to remember
as i am shutting down my heart
Don’t want to breathe
as i’m struggling to hold on
Want to catch my breath
won’t let the past believe it won
i’m fighting myself
Always did,
Maybe always will
i’ve been fighting
Ever since i can remember
And i’m fighting still