This is for all the pain
that I've ever caused,
right now really going insane
can't stop thinking about everything that I've lost.
The monster that I really am, deep inside
is coming out today
I can't no longer hide
I can't put it away.
I'm a freak and that's what I'll always be
when I do this act of desperation
I hope that I will finally be free
from this stupid emotion.
Of selfhate and the past
I want to end my life
I've always known that I would not last
long, too tired of trying to survive.
R.