What I feel for you is a mystery
Because for you
- honestly -
I already fell a dozen different kinds of friendship

From acquaintances
Over ordinary friendship
Deeply-thrusting friendship
Sister-brother feelings
And soulmateship
To flirting
And forbidden feelings I don’t want to have
(if only because they make me listen to sad songs from the 80s)

What you feel for me was a mystery
Because you
- I thought –
You hid what you feel

Just acquaintances?
Ordinary friendship?
Deeply-thrusting friendship?
Sister-brother feelings?
Soulmateship?
Or more?

I fostered the mystery,
The uncertainty
The myth
To the point
I wanted to keep it
That way
Afraid it could be less than expected
Or that I would break it

And now I know
It’s less
It’s no friendship
Because your friendship knows age
And genuine friendship shouldn’t
It’s only kindness
Because you want everyone to like you
And not only the ones which you sincerely like yourself
And it’s not broken
Because there was nothing to break
In the first place