J was looking in myself.
I look deeper and deeper but I don't find any reason to be afraid, afraid of beiing afraid.
Maybe I'm not affraid but I feel myself affraid.
I don't know why? (maybe) because the things in my life are going to be taken away.
I feel the danger in my life so good, that al the things are going wrong.
why doesn't people let me life, and why doesn't I let myself live. The things in my life are so weird and difficult that I can't go out this MOMENT