The lights are out,
But my thoughts go on,
As my demon and his friends,
Continue to sing their song:

"Honey what are you waiting for?,
for you there is no hope, ever more".

I let my legs rest on the sheets,
And try to close my eyes,
Thinking of letters that I should write,
All ending with goodbyes,

So I let the demons sing,
Through my soul, I let it eat,
But tomorrow I will rise again,
For I won't be defeat.

Ashamed of my thoughts,
Thinking of ways out, 
Afraid I'll never find peace in my head,
Turning to God,
I silently shout,
"Let them live a happy life, and take me instead!",

I am scared that I am,
The reason of all pain,
I'm scared to be the reason,
The only one to blame.

My heart bruises with every beat,
Sometimes I want it to stop,
But tomorrow comes another day,
I refuse to just give up.

Mickey Heart