No you won't get me down

No you won't get me down,
Like the song, high all the time,
I must slow my brain down, whatever it takes,
You can try to reach for my hand, but I'll be in the sky,
No more sorrow, because I can't think,
No more tears, no more sadness, no more frost,
Around my heart the ice is dripping off,
Melting down, no more being lost,
I know it's just a facade, but I choose to be a kite,
I refuse to think of things, I will deny them day and night,
And I maintain to hang on the couch, it's just how it's gonna be,
For too long I emptied my tank, and without fuel, this is me,
Don't ask me if I'm stubborn, because I'm not, I swear,
I tried to hang on to every possible solution, anytime it was there,
But here I am without one, and I need to take some rest,
And I feel so sorry for my loved ones, for making such a mess,
No you won't get me down,
Because I've been here before,
With two young kids to take care of on my own,
Never going back to that place anymore,
Ice touched or sunkissed, I close my eyes and cry,
All my life, the same question keeps popping up,
And still I don't know why.
Why does my brain work like this, staying high is all I can do,
Why does it keep destroying me, and my children too?
No you won't get me down,
I've come a long, long way,
And things might seem really scary right now,
But there will come a better day,
And though I mostly lay down right now , while being way up high,
I know I must keep holding on, it's not my time to die,
I am hanging in there,
I'll show this whole damn town,
That there will be times when I want to give up,
But no,
You will not get me down....