Choices (2015)

Choices to make, choices to take,
Where do I want to go with myself, my life and work?
Looking into the distance, my future is only a framework.

Wanting to plan, wanting to do it al. Like a stack of cards, will they balance of will they fall?
My ambitions go far, whether it’s a hobby or sport, myself or my work, I need to follow my heart.

I know what I don’t want which is to stay the same.
In my dreams I see guts and glory and a little fame.
Everything I want I do in bits and pieces not knowing what my goal really is.

Option 1 is to stay a teacher. Dealing fulltime with uncooperative teens is a screamer.
Option 2 is growing into account manager, my level now is of a semi-amateur. A talent for organizing is what I have, doing a couple of courses in my own time for a job that will last.
Option 3 is psychology. A spark in me wants to understand, it will only take money and years and years before I get that diploma in my hand.
Option 4 is the main hobby in my life. Singing, dancing and theatre but lacking the courage to let everything fall and focus all of me to this life.
So I’m letting these hobbies stay with me during my grow, accompany me in my high and lows.
Or shall I allow myself to go after a dream of the past, one I still remember to this day. Opening a wedding store where everything will me handled and every connection could be made. A dream come true, not only for me but for the ones getting married.

Still nog knowing which path to choose, nobody said it would be this hard to be 26. I’m so impatient when I want to make steps... Everybody says to stay calm “It will come in your path(s)”.