A Moment Of Worry And Silence.
If I had the words, I would speak
If I had the courage, I would walk
If I had the strength, I would try and get your attention
If I had it all, just to have a chance at your affection.
But my body is numb, and my tongue is dry
My heart is scared, my words float by,
My strength isn’t near, for all the hurt I’ve had before
If I had it all, lived life different, you’d be easy to adore
As I already am aiming for your heart, but in silence
As I already am afraid of the terrible word no, so I stay in silence
As I already am walking away, like every trial, but in silence,
I just wish I had one more reason, that would tackle it all, but I only feel silence,
So I watch you from a distance, as a friend wanting to be more,
Simply because I’m afraid if I get to close, we’ll be distanced once more,
I could tell you, you are amazing, beautiful, funny and witty and more
So I could tell you all this, that you make me laugh, feel warm and better than before.
But for now you are the one thing I’m afraid of,
The one thing, I don’t want to leave, as you are soft and kind,
For now you are my little secret,
That I’ll endure in silence…
Once more.