(Voordat je leest...ik ben hier dus vet dronken...en sommige zinsverbanden kloppen niet maar soms moet je gewoon dieper gaan om hette snappen...ik vond het wel orgineel...haha. Groetjuz "Teddy" Steven.)

Crushed...

As crushed as I am
In love and in pain
To her as I feel
The feeling of the game

My heart plays this tune
Of love and it’s contents
To feel her as a lover or the other way as friends

She doesn’t know
But feel as I might
It’s her I want
As I cry all night

Lovers friend is her as when we were
A story of my heart
As I don’t know for sure

A love or a pain
Never I feel the same
As we kissed the night before
Now we kiss no more

A scare I feel inside
Fall in love with a companion
As I give her all I feel
Give my up most attention

Never does she look
Into what love could be
A love strong for ever in life
As a pair they call ‘we’

Not in separate forms like me him or her
Just as ‘us’
In love like we never ever were

With ‘Us’ we found ourselves
Floating on air
Lovers like no other ever was
While we give each other the stare

Followed with a kiss
As I never brought up the guts
To tell her I only live for her
And care for her so much

She call’s this ‘we’ like friends
But never true love in sight
I need to open up her eyes
Please get me out of fright

No one ever felt this pain
As knives stab me like I’m nothing
love catches me and kills me every time
For what I don't know but I know it is something


All I keep thinking about is that what we shared back then
Why do you ignore my feeling
as I want to be more then a friend

I WANT to take care
And I WANT to love you
I WANT to be part of your life
But HOW do I do

A breakdown inside
A crumble of the heart
Build up this perfect relation
And begin back from the start

If you only knew how much you meant to me
If I only could dive in your mind
To see what you want me to be

If I could only be the man
To keep you satisfied
To love you as a real man should
No chance was given...so never tried

I start a change
in perspective and ways
In life as I live right now
And live in normal days

It’s another story now
I give up all I had
Today is the day I cried
My heart turns grey and sad

No more love from one
No more care from me
Love me in the way I feel
Cause I just gotta to be

Take my hand as we walk the sand
Stare in my eyes as we hear the sea
Kiss my lips as the sun go’s down
Take you in my arms as you set me free

Kiss the pain away
as love shows it’s purity
Caress the tears on my cheeks away
As I love you in every possible way

No form of pain involved in our life
No feel of sadness as we give our all
I catch your tears
Anytime they still might fall

No drip will be spilled
as you believe in my ways
A love never experienced in life
as my love for you stays

Fed by emotion from the heart directly to yours
Open up love and see what’s behind it’s doors
Only “us”
Just you me against the rest of the world
Show them what my love can be
As I show them my girl

See how it’s done
The meaning of true love
Be a model for those who don’t know
You’re all I’m thinking of

Please God
Give me and her a chance
Lead our paths to each others soul
And let us hold hands

Never let go
Of that what we share
Show the girl I love so much
The meaning of my care

No other guy in life today
Could ever be like me
Inge girl I love you sincerely true
Please let me be what I can be

Time: 5:09
date: 12 januari 2001
Condition: Drunk as a mutha (tequila) and sentimental ass hell…
Intention: Free my heart from pain and let the heavens and her know what I want...
Last words before sleeping: ...Girl... You don’t realize...but I love you So damn much...If you just understood...*sigh*...