Struck with sadness
hardly getting very far
tears bawling down
with this aching scar
memories stuck behind the tears
emptyness fills up the hole
remembering the good years
Not able to hug
breaks my heart
Not having you beside me
brings me back to the start
where I will crash down
crumble into nothing
vanished I will drown
in my own tears
feeling lifeless
not able to stand up
Being a huge mess
and still after a year
is still so hard
not able to move on
being this scarred
lost in this forever maze
between happy and sad
and the everlasting chase
of wanting you near me
and realising the thought
what it would mean
scaring myself being caught
Lost again

{in this circle,
of torture and sadness}

[In memories of
My best friend and buddy, my black cat,
R.I.P Doerak.]