Your absence hurts, every single day. But it never felt more agonizing than the day I lost my baby. That day I really needed my own mom. You might not have found the right words - because there really isn't anything anyone can say - but your hug would have been the comfort I needed. Since then it is so hard for me to handle the fact that my own mother was taken from me, and so was my chance to be a mother myself. And all I want is for you to be here, telling me everything is going to be alright. How I miss you and your motherly advice.