Not knowing how to say this, but it's for real,
Hard to explain in a letter exactly how I feel.
I know this may come as a shock to you,
But please don't be mad, it's something I have to do.
There isn't much more left to say,
But just as yesterday, I couldn't handle today.
Trying to bite away all my tears,
Giving in into one of my fears.
Long have I been fearing of death surrounding me,
Now it's a gift, giving me the chance to be free.
If only someone knew me, deep from inside,
They'd know I have too much things to hide.
Living this life, so cruel and so cold,
I only had one person to love and to hold.
But this is not the way, my life's supposed to be,
I always thought, things would go easier on me.
Been trying so many times, to give a cry for help,
It took me a while to realize I was all by myself.
Not having a goal, not knowing what life has intended for me,
But I haven't got the time nor power to just wait and see.
Never feeling true happiness shining down upon my face,
Never will I feel your love welcoming me with such an embrace.
I haven't got anyone to blame, when you feel like blaming someone, then just say my name.
Not knowing why I'm writing this letter, for all I know I could be awaking tomorrow,
And day after day....but what is a person to do, when there’s nothing left to say.
But hey, look at that, doesn't time fly?
Well, I guess it’s time for me to go now,
It's time to say...... goodbye