wish I knew
where I'm heading right now
can't find my way back
and don't know which road to take right now
one will lead my to all happiness
and one will lead me
towards all evil
just don't know which road is right for me to choose
casue I don't want to end up like last time
with a knife in my hands
looking at the right place to cut

still everytime I tried to cut
something kept me from cutting deeper
cause there were so many people
left behind
and I just didn't want to hurt anyone
like everyone had hurt me
time in time again

I'm not sure
if I'm meant for this life
but if I am
I'm messing it up big time
cause I've got the feeling
that I really don't belong here
guess I should be somewhere else
far away from all people
who do me harm
who cause this pain

but why would they care?
the just go on and on
they keep laughing
about my jokes
they don't feel
or understand my pain
they just like me
for who I try to be
they don't know what I hide
behind my faces of joy
and all my jokes...

if they knew
they wouldn't act on me this way
that's for sure
they just don't know...