why do I feel so cold?
it's like I don't care about the world
blood, death, crime
things like that don't scare me anymore

why do I feel I don't belong in the world?
I want to live in my fantasy
there is just one thing I love beside my dreams
that's my family

why do I feel like my heart is bleeding?
I'm crying without tears
I want to become stronger, but
how stronger I get, how darker I become

why do I feel that I'm not normal?
I can't except my own existence
why should anyone else acknowledge me?
I'm worthless to life

why do I feel this way?
I have friends and family
a good education and a job
but it's nothing compared to the world

why do I feel so alone?
when I'm not
I'm dying inside
I'm scared of the world.

why?