Why do I feel this way?
Had some great days, felt happy and free
Now I’m back home, feel the anger in the air
And this is not the place I want to be

If you compare how I now feel
To the last few days
It’s such a difference
Can I get out of here? Trying to find ways

I hate to be here at home
Don’t belong here, want to go right now
Away from my parents, this house
But I don’t know how

Too young to leave this house
And find a place for my own
My parents wouldn’t allow that anyway
The reason, they let unknown

I hate being watched all the time
Being controlled by anything I do
Let me be, please, this is killing me
I don’t know how much I can go through

Now knowing I feel better away
Makes me more sad to stay here
Especially when weekend is coming up
It is myself, and them, which I once again fear

How come
When I am away, I don’t have
So many urges to cut myself
But I come home, and I lock myself into this cave

Of negative thinking, feeling and behaving
I hate it, that’s not the one I want to be
Didn’t hurt myself for three days
But I know for sure, tonight, I can’t flee

Once again, can’t release my emotions
I felt this afternoon, all over again
Returned to the endless circle
I’ve been in too long, and can’t leave, don’t know when

Such a mess, that’s my life at home
All I can do wrong, happens for sure
I need to get away from here
There’s not much I can endure

The urge, now the strongest in a long time
Can’t resist it tonight I fear
That’s why I leave you now
Shedding the first tear

~I’m sorry I’m not that strong, hate myself for feeling this way, this cannot go on, I need to get away~