hey, this is about boy
i loved him all these years
but he never knew
he left
and i told him i'd be okay
but my heart always knew i wouldn't
and after a while
i realized it
i can't live without him
so here's the truth
about what i really felt
and still feel
it's been a long hard road
without you by my side
the words are still stuck in my throat
and it doesnt feel alright
you where my life
the one reason to live
now i just grab the knife
because sadness is all you give
the tears i shed
and all the fears i feel
the nighmares i had
it is just too real
so i just want to ask you
do you still remember me
are you still feeling blue
or are you now what you always wanted to be
i had so many dreams
about how you would look like now
and i know nothing is what it seems
but it feels like you're here somehow
you maybe think i'm alright
well , i'm not
you might think i won the fight
but i can't , in case you forgot
you know i can't survive
not without you here
this isn't life
isn't it clear
all the things i said
about how i would be okay
it was just in my head
cause,my heart was screaming :Boy, stay!
and then you were gone
my heart was bleeding , and so was my leg
i was all alone
and you really weren't coming back
but i just wonder , what do you see
what do you feel
do you think of me
did your wounds heal ?
'cause all i can see
is you
and all i can feel
is wondering what you do
you're not dead
you're still alive
but it feels so bad
knowing that I won't survive
*i know this one sucks,but i just had to write down my feelings.i know nobody understands me,but please just try*