Hidden tears

I keep my eyes closed
every time I cry,
thinking that the darkness
will shield my tears
but they still find their way
out into the open,
exposing my deepest fears.
I keep my mouth closed
instead of trying
to make them understand,
but they still accuse me
of lying,
and dismiss me with
a wave of the hand.
I keep my head down
so no one can see my pain
but the way I feel
keeps pushing me
until I think
I'm going insane.
If I open my eyes
the next time I cry
will the light dry my tears?
If I open my mouth
and speak
will they finally begin to hear?
If I raise my head
so you can see my pain
do you think you'd be able to understand?
Or is it useless to try,
will I forever cry
and never again be sane?

x-x-2001