unspoken feelings
you have no idea how i felt
and how i still feel
all those years i kept hiding
my thoughts my dreams how i feel
all those times,
i said i forgave you
but i didn't
i said i loved you
i don't, i really Don't
i told you i missed you
but really,
i could not live With you
crying myself to sleep
hoping this would end
every morning im telling myself
it's all gonna be alright
but it didn't
you didn't even see
that i was suffering
eventhough you knew
that something was wrong
when you find my drugs under my bed
you didn't wanted to know
why i was taking those drugs
I felt banished by you
misunderstood, left alone
all i could think of was killing myself
running away from all my "problems"
you never knew how i felt
i never spoke about it
i was affraid
afraid of my feelings and emotions
i crashed, i passed out
it was to much to handle
my head was spinning
words were flying to my head
but i could not say it
I was afraid of you
those unspoken feelings
are still waiting for to come out
and yell it into your face
so you would finely know
how your daughter felt
and how i still feel
all those years i kept hiding
my thoughts my dreams how i feel
all those times,
i said i forgave you
but i didn't
i said i loved you
i don't, i really Don't
i told you i missed you
but really,
i could not live With you
crying myself to sleep
hoping this would end
every morning im telling myself
it's all gonna be alright
but it didn't
you didn't even see
that i was suffering
eventhough you knew
that something was wrong
when you find my drugs under my bed
you didn't wanted to know
why i was taking those drugs
I felt banished by you
misunderstood, left alone
all i could think of was killing myself
running away from all my "problems"
you never knew how i felt
i never spoke about it
i was affraid
afraid of my feelings and emotions
i crashed, i passed out
it was to much to handle
my head was spinning
words were flying to my head
but i could not say it
I was afraid of you
those unspoken feelings
are still waiting for to come out
and yell it into your face
so you would finely know
how your daughter felt
Reacties op dit gedicht
| hiding tears: | Woensdag, juni 01, 2011 00:41 |
| het is voor mij een gevoelig onderwerp, en ik ben niet bang voor de confrontatie met andere, ik denk dat ik bang ben voor de confrontatie met mijzelf ik zal ook niet begrepen worden niet bij die man dus daar ben ik niet bang voor ik moet alleen nog de moed ergens vinden en dat is zo moeilijk voor mij | |
| ela: | Woensdag, juni 01, 2011 00:20 |
| Angst om niet begrepen te worden doet soms meer kwaad dan de feiten zelf. ela |
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| Skydancer: | Woensdag, juni 01, 2011 00:13 |
| Ignorance is bliss. Het is makkelijker om niet te weten hoe of waarom dus wordt deze manier van denken vaak gekozen. Greets, Skydancer. |
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| Heraldo: | Woensdag, juni 01, 2011 00:11 |
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| Auteur: hiding tears | 
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| Gecontroleerd door: Marina | ||
| Gepubliceerd op: 01 juni 2011 | ||
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