(Without the need to lie
about truly wanting to die
We could have a special time
saying a proper and good bye)

i would tell you that i love you
with my words and with my hugs
i would see the pain in your eyes
and the truth behind the lies
i would hold you through your fears
and look for rainbows in your tears

We would go on special walks
and i hope you’d give me a chance to talk
to answer all your questions
so you won’t have to live with many why’s
to laugh and smile as much we can
never be ashamed when we’d cry

i would like to have a chance to listen
to all your objections, all your thoughts
maybe you’d listen to my reasons
maybe you’d hear that i really have fought

i tried my hardest to live, to stay
for i know you didn’t want me to go away
i just am not able to live my life
i’m sorry for saying goodbye
please hear me out, do not leave me here
i just need you to hold me dear

i will be going away
please don’t beg me to stay

just a little longer as we will say goodbye
please know i really have tried